A Night in the Sleeper Coach

 Feelings are rushing towards me..

As the train moves forward my memories pull me backward..

I know how beautiful these all are...

Like I have known this land and breeze and lived like a soul for a thousand years..

The night is calm and mystic yet these rumbling...the penetrating sounds of train..the jerking..the fellows diving in the deep dreams on their sleeper..

Lying here in this sleeper I'm wondering 

Am I becoming the person i always wished to be or the one I swore to destroy??

Well that's a dilemma!!

Let's float elsewhere..The nights are lonely..passengers are sleeping..Just me and the moving window side scenery..

Even in these murky nights I see the essence of my belonging..My past and future collides at the moment..I'm stuck!!

I'm witnessing all these like I had already seen this a million times..why

Why am I feeling like this!

Idk

Time is 2.10... and my vision is slowly fading..But oh god i don't want to leave this feeling..this cool wind,this thoughts,this moment,everything that gave  me an extra thud for ma beat..

But no matter how hard i try,

By the next dawn,all these images I framed will roll into valley of forgotten land..all that might be left will be these writings and a limbo mind of memories!


~SalmaAneesaBabu🦋



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